Hospital Walls

a minute of you to call
I never change at all
the old reflection
of my body
is heading to the sun

a vision of me to rust
a billion chances lost
a view of this town
thru a window of a hospital

it's you that I would call
it's you that I

I changed the lock three times
I could never realize
the window is open
and if I stand on a chair
the World is outside

I close my senseless eyes
it's time to make it right
I open my heart
I fill it with thoughts
and hide before the sky

but now it's time to try
now it's time

oh if Heaven would know
I would learn to swallow
oh those never changing
lack of waiting
minutes of my time

but if I had one more life
another chance to do right
oh heaven knows I would ride a lightning
I would never fear the sky

if I could be like the sun
and treat people with love
I would change the future
change with wisdom
and learn to make it right

I never see this far
together we make a call
I just want to say that
I do love you
I do love you all


Moonlight Rebel

have u ever trust
the things you own
all those mighty habits
all those drums your roll

when the morning comes
the drapes are down
talkin' lost their meaning
voices drone the sky

God is in the air
and in your dreams
is She wake you up now
or is She bring some peace

but the voices in your head
says you are one
that you're a power monster
you outshine the sun

soothe your eyelids
and take your chances
and be You every day

all the people
makes you low and high
they are mostly lovers
lovers from the sky

I hate to say but you're not all those years
you had them all behind you
but time got you on a leash

the fire in your heart means you are strong
but maybe all the power
goes into the wrong

your flame will go into your child
you had it all inside you
just try to keep it right

soothe your eyelids
and take your chances
and be You every day

Moonlight Rebel
take your chances


Wondering

as you might know what we had
as you might know without being sad
as pills will grow on your head
as reasons lost while being sad
as you might maybe wondering
the times we had
all those late nights suffering
we did it again
the trembling pain as it used to be
when you were sad
the shining star as I want to be
with love and regret
as you might call it suffering
and maybe we will regret this
and maybe time won't heal it
there's nothing to say, but you did
there's no one to call, so I never did
as you might maybe wondering
the times we had
all those late nights suffering
we did it again
the trembling pain as it used to be
when you were sad
the shining star as I want to be
with love and regret
as you might call it suffering
as you might call it wondering


Schizophrenia

all the spirit lost
all the lights go out
have you ever trust
have you ever find

a meaning in those years
a meaning in those times
when the sun escaped
let you dark inside

hey you are young
with the lights above
they don't see you now
but you are strong as the ground

I hate to see you cry
but I know
one day you'll fly
rise above those empty tears
know your name
and know your fears

you are dead inside
you may try to hide
but visions make you mine
visions all the time

the morning comes with pain
dark is all remain
playing thru the night
you're too scared to hide

hey you are young
with the lights above
they don't see you now
but you are strong as the ground

I hate to see you cry
but I know
one day you'll fly
rise above those empty tears
know your name
and know your fears

stop growing the fool
you may become
nothing will change it
you already play it

stop closing your eyes
when you're near the sun
let them inhale you
let them to wash you away


Tonight

all I've ever said
when I grow up I'll be more than my dad
my life will fulfill that
but tonight I'm dressed in black
I'm 13 and I'm terribly sad
I'm going to my father's bed
but tonight
he's resting his old hands
but tonight
he'll never speak again
and tonight I grow up
to be like you
and I'll never ever let you go
and the pain you've had
I'll have it too
and when the time will come
I may let it go
all I've ever said
when I grow up I'll be more than my dad
but my life didn't fulfill that
and tonight I'm dressed in white
I'm losing it at 35
how can a man just change his life
I know you want it too
and tonight
I feel I can let you go
all those laughs you had
when you were sad
all the time
you tried to pretend
all the young loves that
you might had
all those reasons left
of you being bad
how the sun did shine
when you were falling in love
how it ended badly
as your own loss
how a tree does grow
if you plant a seed
how this tree will leave the world
you did create